Seems the My Ruin review wasnít agreed upon by someone ..... I got back from working in Finland, and this had arrived. Printed as recieved.

 

Well hello Dave,

Now I would like to bet that you are not expecting this e mail as you are probably sitting alone in your bedroom jacking off to your favorite cover song...'TAINTED LOVE".My name is Tairrie and I sing in a band called "MY RUIN".I think you may have heard of us as well as my former band "TURA SATANA".Today I had my publicist send me a copy of a review that you did of a gig we played at DUDLEY JB'S.Maybe most people don't bother writing to lame ass journalists who take it upon themselves to write bullshit reviews of shows but as you must have heard I am NOT most people.First of all I would like to thank you for attending our show.I'm sure it was probably a nice break from hanging out at the nearest pub and getting shitfaced with your little friends for a night.I want to comment on a few things you said about our show and about me if that is okay with you sweetie.First off...obviously I would hope that former TURA and MANHOLE fans would come and check out my new project...after all I was the founder and frontwoman of these past bands.To say that I am using it to assist me is damn skippy motherfucker!(i'm sorry,is that another so called AMERICANISM that you aren't down with?)I put my heart and soul as well as a few long years into my past band and you better believe that I am going to take FULL advantage of what I worked so fuckin hard to make happen!!!!You are right,a UK band with one album and only a few weeks old wouldn't get the same press or turnout(NEITHER WOULD AN AMERICAN BAND FOR THAT MATTER)however i have been doing this for a while now and like well ummm lets see...how about MAX CAVALERA for instance?I realize in your eyes I am probably NO WHERE NEAR as talented as him however i can scream pretty good for a GIRL (so i've been told)and when he left SEPULTURA and formed SOULFLY i'm sure part of the fact that kids and the press were interested in him was because of his PAST BAND you ASSHOLE!!!!!As for the "SPECTACLE"I would like to assure you that i don't preplan or CONTRIVE so called dramas for the fuck of it.My name is Taiirie not Courtney.As for stage divers I have ALWAYS welcomed them on my stage infact I promote it.The problem begins when they don't jump and dive but instead start to try and have a conversation with me during a song,grab my tits,ass or well, as you like to call it MY CUNT,step all over the band gear,NOT LEAVE THE STAGE and so on and so forth.I respect those who respect me back...GET IT FELLA????A pat on the head is STRAIGHT UP DISRESPECTFUL because i am NOT a dog!No,I do not like to be touched and that's the deal with that.I'm sorry if that offends YOU.It's like this baby.....holding a mic and singing a song is not giving permission for someone to put his or HER hands on my person.When and if I feel comfortable I do go into the crowd because I love to have kids sing with me and it feels amazing.I do like to connect with my audience as well but not on certain levels...like when it becomes a problem ON THE STAGE!I also I NEVER stage dive myself because that would be another problem...I have and I know what happens.Occasionally colliding with a guitarist 10 times in one song does become a bit lame and distracting during a show.We as musicians would like to atleast TRY to put on the BEST possible performance we can.If our equipment gets fucked up then the show is OVER and that ruins it for everyone....INCLUDING THE BAND!!!!As for the encore on this particular evening....we decieded to play a CRASS song because we felt it to be appropriate as to what we were saying in our OWN songs.My problem is that every show we do some fuckin loud mouth drunk guy with no dick or balls to speak of has to yell something shitty and try to get a reaction from me....sometimes he will and this night HE DID!When we walked out he was yelling that we were ripping off CRASS and that I was doing CRASS lyrics and that we sucked for stealing CRASS lyrics and on and on with more BULLSHIT....So I tryed to explain to this idiot that we weren't RIPPING ANYONE OFF...we were plaiyng CRASS for fucks sake and then he continued to talk shit so I did get a little pissed and reacted without thinkingI do have a horrible temper however when some jerk off wants to come to my show and fuck with me he better come prepared.As for the "DUDLEY IN THE HOUSE"comment...I have NEVER said that and would NEVER say it.I have this show on video and did not hear myself say that maybe you got me mixed up with that white boy rapper named FRED DURST and his lovely band LIMP BIZKIT.I however DO NOT use such phrases!!!I am glad you enjoyed atleast ONE song during our little rock show ....STOOPID is a favorite of mine as well.The song PAUL ISOLA graced me with his vocals on was called 'SICK WITH IT" not "SICK OF IT"..just a little info for MR CONCERT REVIEW MAN!!!!You are a dick in my opinion and to be honest I really DON'T give a fuck what YOUR opinion is...I do however love to state my own...especially when I have had a few cocktails and it is late at night here in LA....I guess today is your lucky day darlin.I hope you come and see us againwhen we return early next year.Please bring a pen and paper and maybe a tape recorder so you can review the show PROPERLY and that way you won't look like suck a total ARSE....oh sorry,that wasn't one of my cheesy so called AMERICANISMS was it?Well fuck it and FUCK YOU!!!

GOODNITE

MISS B is going to bed now

x0x0x0x0x

PS please feel free to print MY review of YOU on your webpage I WOULDN'T MIND AT ALL ...infact I DARE YOU!Also, please check out my website and feel free to write mean things to me on my message board...i'm sure you will anyway.It's a shame that you aren't a very nice person but maybe you are just young and need grow up......or maybe you just love KROKUS!!!!!.....www.myruin.com

 

Now, as you may imagine, me being me Iíve got some issues with all that, things I disagree with as being facts. But I was a good boy, this is what I wrote back.

 

Dear Tarrie,

Thanks for the review. As requested I've put it on the web

site at: www.crg.cs.nott.ac.uk/~dxl/reviews/love-letters.html

So, I'm not going to argue here. I'm prepared to discuss what I said in a reasonable rationale way, otherwise there's little point. But a few little pointers and facts:

1) I am NOT a journalist. I don't get paid to write reviews.

I paid for petrol to do a 100 mile trip to and from that gig,

and paid for my ticket. I've seen Tura Satana on a number of occassions, and I've seen 80 gigs so far this year. I'm entitled to my opinion. Anyone is. Anyone who sees a gig is entitled to write their opinion on it.

If I was a journalist I may have received a review copy of the album, in which case I could've checked a song title heard in the noise of a gig to make sure I wasn't a word out. But I have no copy of the album to check against.

2) For what I actually have said about Soulfly, you can click here for the album review, www.crg.cs.nott.ac.uk/~dxl/reviews/NARS/Vol6/soul-alb.html and here for the gig review. www.crg.cs.nott.ac.uk/~dxl/reviews/NARS/Vol6/soul-gig.html

3) On the Subject of stage divers, I've said loads about them, but there is a gig review here which gives an indicator of what I think. www.crg.cs.nott.ac.uk/~dxl/reviews/NARS/Vol10/oms.html

4) Regarding Fred Durst, you can click here to read an interview I did with Tura Satana at which Tarrie was present and the subjectof Fred Durst was raised.

www.crg.cs.nott.ac.uk/~dxl/reviews/NARS/Vol8/tura.html

5) I did not, and would not use the word cunt. I simply don't like that word.

Cheers

Dave

Of course that gained a reaction ...

My New Pal Dave,

>Dear Tarrie,

You are very welcome darling!I'm oh so happy that you opted not to be a pussy and instead chose to put my fan letter to you on your site.I guess you DO have atleast one ball left.

>Thanks for the review. As requested I've put it on the web site at: >www.crg.cs.nott.ac.uk/~dxl/reviews/love-letters.html

I really would NOT consider what I wrote to be arguing...it was more like telling you the truth as I saw it to be.The fact that you interpreted my actions and what went on to suit your twisted little own self gratification is your own problem but when you make blatent untrue statements about me then it becomes mine.

>So, I'm not going to argue here. I'm prepared to discuss what I said in a reasonable rationale way, otherwise there's little point.

SO WHERE ARE YOU EXACTLY DISCUSSING ANYTHING THAT I WROTE YOU IN THIS LETTER BACK TO ME???I REALIZE YOU HAVE A PROBLEM WITH YOUR HEARING AND EYESIGHT...HOWEVER I DO NOT!!!!

>But a few little pointers and facts:

Oh,I guess this is suppossed to be it....

>1) I am NOT a journalist. I don't get paid to write reviews.

THANK GOD FOR THAT!I guess you shouldn't be writing reviews if you DON'T consider yourself a journalist because frankly I don't consider you one either.

>I paid for petrol to do a 100 mile trip to and from that gig, and paid >for my ticket.

I'M SORRY YOU FOUND IT SUCH A WASTE OF YOUR HARD EARNED MONEY BABY...MAYBE NEXT TIME YOU SHOULD JUST GO SEE COAL CHAMBER OR SOME OTHER MORE AUTHENTIC BAND OF HIGHLY TALENTED MUSICIANS.

>I've seen Tura Satana on a number of occassions, and I've seen 80 >gigs so far this year. I'm entitled to my opinion. Anyone is. Anyone >who sees a gig is entitled to write their opinion on it.

YES YOU ARE INTITLED TO YOUR OPINION BUT IF YOU WRITE LIES AND BULLSHIT THEN I AM INTITLED TO GIVE YOU MY OPINION.80 GIGS SO FAR THIS YEAR HUH?MAYBE YOU SHOULD TRY TO LEARN TO PLAY AN INSTRUMENT OR SING OR SOMETHING AND THAT WAY YOU CAN SEE WHAT IT'S LIKE TO ACTUALLY WORK REAL FUCKIN HARD TO PUT A BAND TOGETHER AND SPILL YOUR GUTS EVERYNIGHT,BRUISE AND BLEED FOR WHAT YOU DO JUST TO HAVE SOME ASSHOLE TRY TO RIP WHAT YOU DO APART AND JUDGE IT AS HE ATTEMPTS TO BECOME A SHITTY JOURNALIST!

>If I was a journalist I may have received a review copy of the >album, in which case I could've checked a song title heard in the >noise of a gig to make sure I wasn't a word out. But I have no copy >of the album to check against.

OH,I'M SORRY I FORGOT ABOUT THE FACT THAT YOU'RE NOT AFUCKING JOURNALIST!!!!!!

>2) For what I actually have said about Soulfly, you can click here >for the album review,

FOR NOT BEING A JOURNALIST YOU SEEM TO HAVE A LOT OF REVIEWS DON'T YOU??? I DON'T CARE ABOUT SOULFLY OR WHAT YOU SAID..I WAS MAKING A POINT(or was that too hard to understand as well?)

>www.crg.cs.nott.ac.uk/~dxl/reviews/NARS/Vol6/soul-alb.html >and here for the gig review. www.crg.cs.nott.ac.uk/~dxl/reviews/>NARS/Vol6/soul-gig.html

??????????

>3) On the Subject of stage divers, I've said loads about them, but >there is a gig review here which gives an indicator of what I think.

HOW ABOUT WHAT I THINK...I DON'T FUCKING GIVE A SHIT!!!!

>www.crg.cs.nott.ac.uk/~dxl/reviews/NARS/Vol10/oms.html

>4) Regarding Fred Durst, you can click here to read an interview I >did with Tura Satana at which Tarrie was present and the subject

>of Fred Durst was raised.

YEAH SO WHAT DOES THIS HAVE TO DO WITH JACK SHIT????oh it's pretty funny how much of an asskisser you seemed to act like when you were doing an INTERVIEW as a NON JOURNALIST back then with us as TURA SATANA!!

>www.crg.cs.nott.ac.uk/~dxl/reviews/NARS/Vol8/tura.html

>5) I did not, and would not use the word cunt. I simply don't like >that word.

WELL I HOWEVER DO AND YOU ARE ONE!!!!

ccccccccunt!!

>Cheers

>Dave

with fists and scars

and NO ROCKSTARS!!!

miss b

And that's it. Of course I stand by what I wrote, and there are some issues in there that Iím unhappy about in terms of what I feel is being insinuated. Maybe Iíll touch on them at points in the future. But there seems little point in carrying on with this if it's to see how loud someone can shout. I'm tired and I've got better things to do with my time. Tarrie has me sussed and obviously completely out thought me on all arguments. I will now crawl under a rock and reflect on what a horrid little man I am and how little worth my life has. I will cease from ever holding an opinion of my own again. Or something.

 


Few days later another e-mail arrived from someone different. Completely unrelated to the above, but to do with some things I said in a previous issue. Permission wasnít in that one to publish so I can say no more. Letís just say another person is rather upset at my "immature attitude, and childish behaviour", and wanted to inform me that I "simply donít understand the reasons for some things and how thing work". Oh but I do ok, but at the moment I am obviously going to have to bite my lip. Hmmm. Strange though how I had a few weeks earlier received something from someone else on the very same issue which totally contradicted this person. Both wishing to "put me straight" about it. Looks like Iím my opinion, which Iím of course told is worthless anyway, is upsetting some people. What do you reckon? Should I change the name of the zine to How To Make Friends And Infuriate People?


dBh - Moron Teachers

Bought this one after seeing dBh supporting earthtone9 at Rock City. Iíd been looking for it in the shops, but couldnít find it. Thereís a bunch like that. Still canít find the new Breed77 single, or the second Queen Adreena one. Anyway, the first new offering from this lot in ages after the disappointment of their debut. But live theyíve blown that away, and itís pleasing to see that theyíre managing to make the leap in the studio as well. A full on grindcore styled assault, However itís Kane that takes the honours. The slow, almost death like growl allowing the music to be build.Thereís a whole host more intensity and aggression about the band now, itís certainly not as accessible as they were, but itís all the better for it. They need to get an album done quickly methinks, time to try and cash in on their new found strengths. Available on Lockjaw Records.